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Aug 5th / Voice || LOCKED AS FUCK

[bigbadrose]

[After Ten dies is in lockdown mode with guards.]

How do you work off your anger these days? And don't tell me you have none.

{Maybe she could go running? But she actually felt too violent for it.]

I'd ask Jack to come shooting with me or show me his Torchwood's style defenses, but between you, him, and your past self, I think I'd just wind up with enough sexual frustration to fuel an entire city.

Jeez. I have actually reached the point where I can't find it in me to cry anymore. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing.

Aug 10th

[guitar_hero]

[he didn't know what to do with this then and he doesn't now. But it all seems settled, shockingly without his interference. So, considering this question is now moot, he'll let it go]

ACTION | Aug 17th

[bigbadrose]

[Sitting on his desk wearing a hoodie, no shirt, just sports bra, and jeans, but no trainers, kicking her heels and waiting for him.]

[She figured it might be awhile so she is practicing her bass, and asked the TARDIS to let her know if someone other than the older Doctor is coming.]

ACTION | Aug 17th

[guitar_hero]

[he actually doesn't take too long. Maybe a few hours. don't touch his laptop He's actually in a fairly good mood until he opens the door. That is indeed a look you have going for you, Rose Tyler. He's not sure what it means and he's not sure he wants to know. Unfortunately it's too late to back out because he's been spotted so he sighs]

Look, if you're going to have a yell you have ten minutes. After that I'm expected somewhere. [as in, anywhere where Rose Tyler isn't yelling at him]

Action || September 1st

[bigbadrose]

[It's only been one week trying to wrangle 80 hour work-week, but Rose is exhausted. She never worked this hard at Hendrick's, because well 1) she hated that job 2) it was stupid and kind of meaningless, and 3) she wasn't trying to avoid everyone at home. Back then Mickey and her Mum were her only reasons for hanging on and not running away all over again. Even if she did eventually.]

[In any case...]

[She crashes on his bedroom sofa, still in work clothes, and sleeps away.]

[Just to remind him she's still here. She'll never be gone for good. She still loves him, even when everything's a mess, and they're avoiding each other.]

Action || September 1st

[guitar_hero]

[he's rarely there at all these days and will be rarely there for an indefinite period. But something tells him to go and so he does.

He doesn't linger, but when Rose wakes there will be a blanket on her and a cup of tea steaming gently. Not that you can prove it was him who did it. Could've been anyone]

Voice || October 30th || 7 pm

[classicms_smith]

You better respond to me, I'm not waiting about for you to make up your mind only to change it a dozen times.

[There's not actual anger to her tone. It's teasing and light with a few giggles at the end.]

But anyways, there seems to be some sort of party for this Halloween holiday at the night club. I never finished those dancing lessons with you, so I was wondering if you would like to go with me? It's been a while you know.

Voice || October 30th || 7 pm

[guitar_hero]

I could never say no to you, could I? Count on it. Shall I pick you up or will we meet there?

Action 11/14

[bigbadrose]

[Rose waits until everyone is gone and she can catch him alone.]

[After running out of his class to sob uncontrollably in the bathroom, try to cool down at the arcade and think, and her disastrous conversation with Amy... nothing is fixed.]

[She can't eat. She can't sleep. She can't fight. She can't fix.]

[And all the good, all the best things in her life, she's scared of making worse.]

[It's not fair to do this. She debates running away. But then they'd come find her.]

[WHY?]

[Why would anyone want her back after all this? ALL THIS CONSTANTLY.]

[She could go to hell. Literally. Koishi and Satoshi would put her up until she could learn to breathe again...]

[But it would be running away and even if she told everyone where she was...]

[So trapped.]

[She hopes he can handle this much. Because if he can't? Well then... too bad. She'll just have to try to pick up the pieces afterward.]

[So she throws herself on him in a clingy hug and sobs uncontrollably on his chest.]

Action 11/14

[guitar_hero]

[fortunately he has plenty of tissues and some ice cream in the cryofridge so long as she doesn't mind it's in one solid mass. Anyway he lets her cry, rubbing her back and not entirely knowing what to say.]

Voice | 11/14 BEFORE Night & when Rory went home but after the Doctor's lecture

[bigbadrose]

Doctor!

I'm sending you a link to a thread! I don't know if it would bother Amy or River, so I'm leaving it to you to decide, yeah?

Here!

[And attaches the above ^]

Text // Dec 19th, middle of date auction

[bigbadrose]

Tell me what kind of prize can you get, when you don't want to win it?

Text | March 12th

[bigbadrose]

You've got a fast bike,
You're holding my freedom in your hands
I've got mine around your chest
And it's the best
More than anyway else can understand

Maybe we're going nowhere
But it feels like somewhere to me
You throw me into the ocean
And I'm overcome with emotion
This is what it means to be free.

Don't let today end,
Tomorrow just won't be as good
Every day with my best friend
You make it better than anyone else could

Text | March 12th

[guitar_hero]

[that's cute]

Then lets ride to the sunset
To the starlight
Til the wheels give out
And our breath too

The truth is, you know
Despite it all, because it all
I'm always going somewhere
When I'm going with you

Today, yesterday, tomorrow
Wen stars will wheel, begin and end
Hand and hand we'll touch circle
Close beside as friends.

ACTION / March 17th

[bigbadrose]

Okay, I have definitely had a few. [That spells wonderful things, doesn't it?]

[And Rose just wanders in, over to him, not caring about how floozy she seems or not, just hugs him and snuggles under the arm. Mmmm Doctor hugs.]

But I realized something. Shhhhhh. Shh. Something big! Something really important!!!

[I LOVE YOU-- no wait, he already knew that.]

[She just sort of stops talking right there, dazed with herself and trying to figure out words.]

[And then weighing whether it's worth it when she could just steal Doctor hugs instead.]

ACTION / March 17th

[guitar_hero]

It's perfect, you know, plausible deniability or hand waving later. Hold on. I'm going to shift you a bit. [and he does] There. Now... You were saying? [goes back to writing his lecture.]

Voice / April 20th / Locked

[bigbadrose]

What exactly do you think I want, when you said I only want it my way?

Because no matter how I turn it over in my head... it's not makin' sense. Everything I want can't be my way, that's why I was so angry before. So I wanna know what you thought it was. Or think it is.

And I promise not to yell or fight, if I get too mad again, I'll switch back to text. But I needed to hear your voice.

Voice / April 20th / Locked

[guitar_hero]

Oh I can't even remember.

[and what even is the point to the conversation? Semantics. In the end it doesn't really matter]

Voice

[youfool]

Hello, Doctor. I heard you were looking for musical talent. If he hasn't contacted you already, I've found one that might pique your interest.

[Here he is!]

Voice

[guitar_hero]

Thanks.

[a pause]

How've you been?

May 16th / text / 3 am / locked

[bigbadrose]

I dreamed of Meta again last night. For a long time when I dreamed it was of you. I don't know what I'm doing. I guess I should talk to Fluffy, but I can't. And I try to be strong for Jack. I guess I gave up that with you. When did this become us? You don't have to answer that, I'm just talking to the dark.

May 16th / text / 3 am / locked

[guitar_hero]

Time changes everything, Rose Tyler. Even us.

Action / Voice / May 18th ON STAGE FACING HIM BUT YANNO ALL LENGTHS FOR A JOKE

[bigbadrose]

[Beep beep, pick up loser! :V]

Action / Voice / May 18th ON STAGE FACING HIM BUT YANNO ALL LENGTHS FOR A JOKE

[guitar_hero]

What?

Email / May 20th

[bigbadrose]

[There's an attachment to a song.]

Just so you know, I've heard you. Unless I'm wrong?

[guitar_hero]

[do you really expect him to answer that one way or the other? He can't. And even if he could, why are you asking if you already know? He's not going to have this discussion, thanks]

May 29th / Action

[bigbadrose]

[10 is back alive, and from after he said goodbye to her, and he didn't want to again here and her head and hear both ache and she doesn't know what she's doing and just goes to the blanket fort and curls up in it with a pillow over her head.]

May 31st

[bigbadrose]

[Ten basically convinced her to stay yesterday, but there's still unfinished business with this Doctor.]

[She sits up on his desk and hands him a special new donut flavor to try.]

You said it wasn't better without me. You want me to be your bass. But you don't ever want to hurt as badly as when I almost fell into the void again.

If there was no Jack here, no Gwen, no Donna, no Bowtie, and Fluffy, no River, just you and me and a city of otherwise strangers, and you could have anything you wanted from me, what would it be?

If Meta hadn't been born, could you have said it?

You were so happy until then and it was like a switch flipped. You went from holdin' my hand like you'd never let go, to planning out exactly how to say goodbye. And that's not Meta's fault. [Finger over his lips.] And it's not yours or Fluffy's either.

[Withdraws the finger.]

[Looks up at the ceiling.]

[She wonders if she even CAN let go and pursue what she really wants. Here, now, in this place. But she'll settle a LOT more for the Doctor not hating himself and making decisions for everyone for the "best."]

[She steals his hand and holds it over her own, and close to her heart.]

[Slowly, she lets go, and hops off the front of the desk, her back to him.]

If you could have whatever you want with me, what would it be?

May 31st

[guitar_hero]

[it was a trap. He knew it was a trap. She was back from Twiggy and not crying her eyes out and clinging so obviously it was a trap. The donut, too, was a trap.

There was only one thing to do.

Rose might feel a gust of a breeze and, looking out, see the window open and him tearing across the grounds]

June 21st | Action

[bigbadrose]

I'm stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid...

[Carelessly tosses her backpack to the floor, having stormed in in a usual Bad Wolf flurry of emotional tornado and thunderstorms, though the bass gets set a lot more carefully.]

Sooooooooo stupid.

Daft git.

[HUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.]

[Hugs his side, but doesn't linger, immediately crash into the pillow fort and fixing it up, though she brought paperwork and sets at writing notes.]

[Ten quid, it's about Martha, or better yet, just Fluffy in general.]

June 21st | Action

[guitar_hero]

[he doesn't even really look up from his tedious grading]

Martha, or Twiggy in general?

[Voice]

[storiesofmyown]

[Her voice betrays a tiny hint of nervousness, but more of regret, when her message comes through.]

You said give you a bell when I found my feet, so, this is me, Martha, giving you a bell. Hello, Doctor. Or should I call you Professor?

[Voice]

[guitar_hero]

Where you at, Mamacita?

[he sounds cheerful as if they never had an arguement, because honestly, he's relieved]

July 13th Late at night // Voice & bass

[bigbadrose]

[12 hasn't seen Rose much this month, between working things out with Fluffy since the skateboarding, she made him a promise to try to stay every night so long as he just asked her, which means he's been keeping to it.]

[But that doesn't mean Guitarist is out of her mind just because he's out of sight. She's used to missing him, thinking of him, even when he's not in her reach. But at least now she can still drop him messages.]

[So he gets a song.]

I can feel you missing something,
Wanting something more
You're looking for a hope
That's not ouside your door

I can feel it driving you crazy
Wanting to reach out your hand
You're looking for your Narnia
In every cupboard's Wonderland

But I see it in you,
Deep in your pale blue eyes
You try to hide, but it's no good
There's no way you can disguise
The beauty and all the wonder
Hidden deep within
You're looking for something new
But just look back to where you've been

Give me your hand, and I'll show you
The joy of being here
You know how much I know you
There's nothing left to fear

Adventure's all around you,
Together we'll make it sing
You think you're ground-bound
But you gave me wings

We'll fly together,
You made me soar,
So come with me
I'll show you more.

July 13th Late at night // Voice & bass

[guitar_hero]

[he noticed, but he doesn't let it bother him. It does make him unsure why she's singing this and who it's meant for because with Rose it's never easy to understand anything. He won't hold her to the adventure part since what is out there is difficult to come by]

Nice. We should perform it somewhere.

7/17 // Text / Super[Who]Locked

[bigbadrose]

Play a word game with me.

[She can't sleep. Is this where she wants to be? How can she not want to be here? No. It is where she wants to be. Like Martha said, she just didn't like the complications and drama, or hurting anyone else.]

[So why is she so scared? Why does she still want to run?]

[Where should she be?]

[She debates her confession.]

[DEBATES IT HARD.]

[Finally:]

He really hurt me. With Martha. And Jack. Why am I still here? Why am I still dumb? He's never even apologized. He doesn't even know.

He said he wouldn't be jealous, and then he was. I was too, I'm not above that. But I never said I wasn't.

And it still hurts.

He said he wants the real me, but I feel like a year ago when I said I didn't know who that was anymore and I felt lost.

What am I scared of? I've already been hurt.

What am I looking for?

I'm scared I'm not enough. Even now. I told him it feels like he sees a version of me all built up in his head. I can't live up to it. Yet the shields of me just hurt him to try to keep him away and he pushes them them as stubbornly as I came after you.

I don't feel adequate in the slightest.

Not even now.

I didn't want you to be human. I just didn't want to be pushed away again.

How can everyone say I am good for him when you said yourself it hurt so much you couldn't take it?

I feel like Neon. (John Mayer.) And when I played it for him, he didn't get it. Maybe Bowtie is right. We need professional help. But he was the first one to say I needed to hold back more. If I have to hide truth from him, how can he ever know the real me?

I'm sorry. There's just no one else I can trust with all this.

7/17 // Text / Super[Who]Locked

[guitar_hero]

That's a hell of a word game.

[he doesn't know how to address all this. There's too much. And even he'll admit that face is being selfish with it. Not good with relationships. Never good with them. Not even to talk about Elizabeth. Those were words better left unsaid. ]

I think the Bowtie is right. But I also think you shouldn't be the only one bending. Still, even if you're talking to me it's still me so ...perhaps someone who can give you and myself outside advice? [he can't be entirely sure]

Mostly I think you need a hug. I'm here if you need me.

July 27th//7pm Just wanna cyber with u

[guitar_hero]

The Doctor is dutifully waiting in the Cyber Cafe, a few hours early, with a mug of steaming cocoa and a laptop. He is writing away at a fast, steady clip; wearing sunglasses still despite the relative dimness of the lighting in here.

[peaceful_shadows]

Nikola entered the Cyber Cafe at the appointed time, both curious and wary as he glanced around the strange place. Since his arrival, every day had been filled with new things to learn. From technology to people. Nikola couldn't deny that he was left fascinated by it all and was given a stark reminder with every encounter just how.. stagnant his world was in some regards. Technology being one of them.

Then again, considering the... political situation, it was no wonder. He honestly wished that his world could benefit from some of the things here.

However, that was not why he was here...He spotted the Professor easily enough and headed towards him. His curiosity rearing its head as he studied the device before the man and also wondered why he was wearing sunglasses inside.

"I suppose this constitutes my first lesson under your tutelage."

Nov 20th | Action

[bigbadrose]

[Between Fluffy, the post that started it all, 13, and Bowtie, Rose is less vibrant and less throwing herself into the hurricane, and more of a sad color faded dried and pruney wilted Rose who just curls up in a sad little ball on 12's lap.]

[She's quiet and still for a long time, just holding onto him and finally cries.]

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry you're here and can't run away, and people come and go willy nilly and I didn't want them to, all right? And I'm jealous. And I'm tired of being jealous. And thank you for -- even if you do judge me for it, you don't push me away because of it and it means a lot. [DEEP SHUDDERING BREATH.] But I'll always rather you live and love and you don't -- don't ever refrain from loving someone else just because I exist. And I'm here. And I'm jealous. And I'm always gonna BE jealous. But nothing would do me a bigger disservice than just... not loving because you're worried about your loyalty to me. And I don't mean like... [Sniffles. Grinds teeth.] Tell me about how you moved on past me, because I can't take it again... [Cries!] Why does there have to be a past me?

Waaaaaaah!

And Fluffy just proposed I think, and I shot him down, what is WRONG with me?!

[Both hands to eyes and bawls more.]

Nov 20th | Action

[guitar_hero]

[he tucks her up in a blanket which is nearby, though he's not sure how it got there, the TARDiS has it all in hand as usual. He rubs her shoulder, listening to her cry and her words. She's so young and so vibrant. She tries harder than anyone he's ever met.]

It's not like that. You never get over someone. You never got over your father, nor should you have. [of course she has Pete back in a timey wimey alternate universey way. Just a hop skip and a jump into another kind of restless longing]

There is a past you because there has to be. That's the nature of time and space and life and death. Hurting is hard, jealousy is hard, but you need to feel these things in order to work through it, to find yourself anew.

I don't know why you rejected him. Only you can know that.

[he curls her close and rests his cheek against her hair]

Listen, you're with us whenever we go, wherever, you left a mark that's not going to be erased no matter how old we become. One day we might meet again.

But you have to live too, Rose. I feel like your hampered by us more than anything and I want you to be happy. Find happiness. Not to fake it or feel pressured but one day to find that joy that you have in you. I can't tell you how to get it, though if I could I would gift wrap it.

In the meantime, Darling, deep breaths. I'm here.

March 27th | Action | Office in the TARDIS in the Office (yes)

[bigbadrose]

Hit me with your best shot, FIRE AWAYYYYY~!

[Drunk singing, and takes a really heavy swig from a bottle of vodka, that she will bite the hands of anyone trying to take away.]

[Instead she spins around, sitting on his desk and half leans on him!]

Don't, don't tell me to talk to him.

I did fine. Just FINE, you know? I was FINE! [GROOOOOWLS and chomps on the glass mouth of the bottle and drinks some more.] Well, not fine. But mostly fine! [She does finally put the bottle down on the desk and throws her arms around the Doctor's neck in a hug.] S'not faaaaaaaaaair! We both love you more than each other! WAhhhhhhhhhhh...

[guitar_hero]

You're very drunk. [just call him Doctor Obvious. He picks her up and sets her on his lap on his chair in the office in the TARDiS in the office]

This about Captain Jack?

SMK // August after the mission // Voice

[bigbadrose]

Can you teach me bass? Help me be the Paul McCartney to your George Harrison? But without the control freak comin' from me.

[guitar_hero]

I'll teach you anything you want to know. Just say the word and it's yours.

SMK / 9/23 right before work/dusk / Audio

[bigbadrose]

Hey so.

When you told me about Meta, that's cool I get it. And same about your wife, that's nice, I appreciate the head's up.

But here's the thing, right?

I don't want to go back to my parents. I know how that sounds? And I don't care. I really don't. It's so stupid. I should... be glad. Grateful even, and I'm not. Because I was such a pill to them the last few years, and all I did was try to get back to you, I kept calling Pete... yanno Pete. I wouldn't even treat him like a step-Dad. Remember how you tried to hold me back from being stupid when we were first in his universe? And I still went and told him who I was? Well, even though he rescued me from the void, I was a pretty ungrateful brat to him for it, and that's putting it nicely. I was... beyond unbearable. And I get it. Everyone has to face the music sometime, suck it up Rose. That was my shitty choices, not yours.

And Mum. I must have asked for a baby brother every Christmas for years until I really understood what it was I was askin', yeah? And the minute Tony was born, I was so jealous and hurt, and felt so replaced, and unnecessary.

Shit. Unnecessary. I'm just an extra, aren't I? Just like Meta. I'm not even your +1 anymore. Shit. I'm being stupid. It's not like I'm jealous. Okay, yes, I am. Very jealous. I'm glad you have a hand to hold. I am. Really really. But it should be me.

And I can't even work up enough anger to fight with you so...

I just don't want you to think I'm unaffected. At least acknowledge this isn't a perfect plan for me. It's not what I wanted, I kind of arranged things, did things, very differently all assuming I'd be back with you.

And I know it's been like hundreds of years for you, and a wife, and Missy for fifty, and I am, I truly am, honored that you remember and care still, it's just jarring for me too. I don't know how to switch gears.

[Cries!] And you're my best friend! And all I wanted was to come talk to you for years and I couldn't! I couldn't even do the psychic thing you and Jack do!! And even if I have Meta there, I'm all alone here, and I shouldn't be because we're both here together, so why?!

Ugh. I'm going to work! But you owe me... something. When I get off. [Sniffle.] Bubble tea. Just you and me. And hugs. And I won't take no for an answer. See you then.

SMK / 9/23 right before work/dusk / Audio

[guitar_hero]

[he doesn't know what to do with...any of that. On some level he gets it. That Rose is just venting. That she needs to. That she doesn't have anyone to talk to despite the fact she seems to talk to everyone. Maybe words aren't enough. Maybe words are just enough to keep her from spinning off wildly into the ether. Either way, he never seems to have the right ones to tell her that will make things okay or even better.

But he won't give up either. Even if he probably should.]

I'll be there.

[is the only thing he can say about it. He's already said everything else, he feels. I'm sorry being chief among them. So he is. Waiting in the kitchen in the flat, bubble tea in the fridge. And some ginger cake that he'd been snacking on. It's not much but he hopes it's enough]